well, here we are once again... new year, new start, looking for a new job, and most of all, looking for a new perspective. whether that new perspective is in connection to taking care of myself, or my husband or my life, it is past time for a change. half in jest, i told a friend that 2012 should be the year of "outside-y" stuff, but the more i think about it, the more i think that is a great idea. get up, get out, get involved... quit telling myself that i will do it tomorrow. i think about how many blessings i have, and even though there are days when i feel like it is all i can do to get out of bed and put clothes on, i need to remember to live. remember to laugh hard any time i can, and remember on those gray and foggy days, this too shall pass.
probably the most important thing though, this year, will be to know ahead of time that there will times when i wuss out, or get lazy, or fall in a hole and that it will be okay. it doesn't make me a bad person, it doesn't make me worthless, it doesn't make me incapable of following through on anything.... it just makes me human. i deserve the same consideration toward myself that i offer others.
so it is bittersweet to start over, yet again, but it is hopeful too. and i just need to keep reminding myself of that.
Labels: it is okay to forgive yourself, new year new you, nobody's perfect